Or at least learn the concept of loyalty.
I had a lengthy conversation with Matt earlier. I don’t mean to generalize, but I know very few women with the audacity to speak their minds and stand up for what they believe in.
To be perfectly honest, I only know of two in my immediate vicinity: Kathy and Nancy. Now, those are two ladies who don’t back down from a fight, or a confrontation.
And besides those two, I would say Dalila and Lilly.
Now, I would love to lump myself with these women, and I do try very hard to simply be me without fearing censorship or ostracism.
I believe I’m on my way.
Or maybe I’m short-changing myself again, which I often do.
But I digress.
This quality in people stems from simple loyalty. To one’s ideals, to one’s loved ones, as well as to oneself.
Loyalty and conviction. One must believe in the things she is loyal to.
I believe in my friends, my true friends.
I believe in my morals.
And most importantly, I believe in myself.
It took me a very long time to achieve that last one.
I suppose all of this griping stems from my desire to have a strong female counterpart around. I see Nancy and Kathy on a regular basis, but due to work or the newspaper, we rarely actually get to hang out. Despite these obstacles, we’ve become great friends, and I would love to spend more time with them.
Distance separates me from the other two.
But what I desire is a female friend near me who has strong conviction, who won’t allow any badmouthing or wrongdoing if she doesn’t think it’s right.
I’d like a friend who can match my stride.
I have plenty of male friends with balls. After all, society still programs men to be strong and unwavering.
That is why I have many more male friends. We can go toe-to-toe, head-to-head, without disrespecting each other. And I know they will stand up for me, or stand by me, when I need them. Vice versa, of course.
Time for more newspaper business.
Countdown for Washington, D.C., bitches!