“What does that even mean? Is it some sort of ironic doom?”

Oh, grammar jokes. How they slay me! Mostly because they are quite rare. And usually poorly done.

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Another uneventful day. I’ve pretty much been in the same chair for the last twelve hours. Being a bum doesn’t really suit me, but eh. I’m tired.

My spirit is tired. It’s the wrong point in the game to be so exhausted, but nonetheless…

I can’t fight it forever, as much as I would love to.

I feel like a veritable pile of shit.

Really.

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Sara suggested earlier that I might want to think about returning to therapy. The last time was maybe three years ago now. A part of me was considering it a few weeks ago when absolutely nothing felt right. Since then I have picked up a few more of the pieces of what feels like a broken life, so I’m not so sure I need to talk to a counselor again. In addition, that sort of therapy really depends on a good doctor-patient relationship, and some people spend weeks finding the right person to unload upon. My last doctor scared me a bit, and she always sounded like she wanted to scold me. This, of course, didn’t help me at all and caused me to just clam up. I didn’t want to share my soul with that hunchbacked fire crotch of a therapist. Gag. She also always compared my situation to her own family, which bothered me to no end. As soon as my ten co-payment sessions were up, I said adios to that woman.

Meh. It always boils down to money. I think I would like a neutral person to talk to, but eventually monetary funds will become an issue. And school is already a heavy financial burden.

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I’ll just wait and see. I know I will be OK; I just wish I could skip ahead a few months into the future.

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